Adjusting and Reconciling

             As we work on adapting, evolving, and doing better, our progress can be tracked.  What can also be monitored is our setbacks.  Both are perfectly common.  And yet.  One is clearly more desirable than the other.

            Or is it?  I mean, sure, falling down isn’t the way to success.  But maybe when we put them together, they add up to more, and it really is?

             When we talk about recovery or improvement we don’t always acknowledge (or even mention) the challenges.  It’s as if we’re thinking we can only share the “good” parts of our journey, not the struggles.  Wait, isn’t it possible though, that all pieces are positive?

             Those stumbles and fall-downs and roadblocks and detours?  They can be enormously educational.  And, it turns out, just as “good” as all the other experiences along the way.

             Right now we have been asked to look at

timing.

             Because even though we aren’t able to see the big picture yet, we are being reassured that we ARE on the right track, we ARE making progress, we ARE heading in the correct direction.

             I was in a situation yesterday.   It was super “normal” and very average for an afternoon of running errands.  But, it went ugly in a fast and unexpected way.

             Two end-aisle displays, on either side of me as I stood in line, just refused to be ignored.  I began to feel nauseous, sweaty, and hyper aware of my body (specifically of its shape, size, and age).

             It was too much.  I left.  I walked out.  I chose to save my mental health.  I went to the car.  Where I sat, in the rain.  It was so cool there, and refreshing.  Nicely overcast and gray, very soothing.  I slowed my breathing, focused on IN and OUT.

             I reminded my inner critic that I had value, that I was worthy, that I had as much right to be there as any of those other people.  (That the advertising in all of those products and images were fucking lies.)

             As I began to feel safe and centered, it occurred to me that this entire event had a purpose.  I was able to see the arc, the spiral, the activity of what had happened.

             This lesson dropped into place, exactly when it was supposed to.  As do they all.  As does our entire life here.  The timing, as they say, is divine.  Not necessarily because of outer sources, but because of our own inner strength and power.

             It’s us.  We are in charge of our blueprints, even if we’re not in control, we do have value.  We do have worth.  And we see that, just when we need to most.

 

 

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Carefully Together

             One of the things that *A* and I discussed yesterday was Acceptance.  How sometimes this is simply how it IS.  Nothing much more to say or do.  We simply have instances in our lives like these.

             It doesn’t mean we give up though.  And our messages today are both very helpful in aiding, both the Acceptance aspect, as well as the Solution side.

            After some very busy (and geographically far-away traveling) dreams, this is what I woke up with:

Creative cooperation.

              We can apply this several ways.  The first is to look within.  We have our Team, we have angels we can call upon, we our own inner strength, we have individual power.

             On the other hand, we can call out to our village of supportive friends and family.  (If you are a person reading this and you don’t have that, e-mail me, I’ll share some of mine, I have lots.)

             Resources are abundant.  No one is alone, not with connections on-line, call centers, hospitals and treatment facilities.  Hell, if we’re really in trouble we can dial 911.  Reaching out, to the outside, is easier than it’s ever been.

              It might seem as though our daily draw is saying the exact opposite  but read,the line about how this situation was actually part of the plan, the blueprint.

“God of Conflict Resolution  ~

You are being encouraged to walk away from a current conflict.

By drawing this card you are being encouraged to walk away from a current situation which is causing conflict in your life.  Understand that walking away from this situation is not a sign of weakness, but rather a sign of strength.  There is nothing to prove or gain by fighting in this instance.

The universe has placed this conflict in your way in order to guide you to your true path.  Bless all concerned and let go.  By detaching from this situation, new possibilities and opportunities open up to you.”

             It truly does take a village (one we select carefully), it also takes the idea that we have creative and cooperative ways of helping ourselves.

Today’s Deck:

Angels, Gods, and Goddesses Oracle Cards by Toni Carmine Salerno, with cover-up by Jennifer Hewiston

Today’s Sharing:

is this picture I posted on Instagram earlier.

“My neighbor, the master quilter, left me this, with a note: from my desk to yours.“

             Difficult to make out perhaps, but it’s a very large pile of quilting catalogs.  I’m going through them, chronologically, and getting ideas for some new projects.  I’d RATHER be able to order shit, but this will have to do for now.  Acceptance!