Adjusting and Reconciling

             As we work on adapting, evolving, and doing better, our progress can be tracked.  What can also be monitored is our setbacks.  Both are perfectly common.  And yet.  One is clearly more desirable than the other.

            Or is it?  I mean, sure, falling down isn’t the way to success.  But maybe when we put them together, they add up to more, and it really is?

             When we talk about recovery or improvement we don’t always acknowledge (or even mention) the challenges.  It’s as if we’re thinking we can only share the “good” parts of our journey, not the struggles.  Wait, isn’t it possible though, that all pieces are positive?

             Those stumbles and fall-downs and roadblocks and detours?  They can be enormously educational.  And, it turns out, just as “good” as all the other experiences along the way.

             Right now we have been asked to look at

timing.

             Because even though we aren’t able to see the big picture yet, we are being reassured that we ARE on the right track, we ARE making progress, we ARE heading in the correct direction.

             I was in a situation yesterday.   It was super “normal” and very average for an afternoon of running errands.  But, it went ugly in a fast and unexpected way.

             Two end-aisle displays, on either side of me as I stood in line, just refused to be ignored.  I began to feel nauseous, sweaty, and hyper aware of my body (specifically of its shape, size, and age).

             It was too much.  I left.  I walked out.  I chose to save my mental health.  I went to the car.  Where I sat, in the rain.  It was so cool there, and refreshing.  Nicely overcast and gray, very soothing.  I slowed my breathing, focused on IN and OUT.

             I reminded my inner critic that I had value, that I was worthy, that I had as much right to be there as any of those other people.  (That the advertising in all of those products and images were fucking lies.)

             As I began to feel safe and centered, it occurred to me that this entire event had a purpose.  I was able to see the arc, the spiral, the activity of what had happened.

             This lesson dropped into place, exactly when it was supposed to.  As do they all.  As does our entire life here.  The timing, as they say, is divine.  Not necessarily because of outer sources, but because of our own inner strength and power.

             It’s us.  We are in charge of our blueprints, even if we’re not in control, we do have value.  We do have worth.  And we see that, just when we need to most.

 

 

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Open Hands, Open Heart, Open Mind

             Everyone knows, by now, that one of my major lessons (and apparently that of many folks), is all about the Release.  The Letting Go.  The No-Longer-Clutching-For-Dear-Life-With-A-Death-Grip.

             Recently another of my past lives was revealed to me.  And boy howdy!  Was it just a big ol’ pile of LET THE FUCK GO nearly from start to finish.  (It also answered several questions, once I gazed about and saw the scenery…)

             What I have learned from exploring these various meat-suit travels my spirit has gone on, is that we can definitely see patterns.  We can definitely observe cycles and loops of what we’re working on, where we’re headed, and what helps us the most.

            The Universe reminds us now, whenever we have the option, it’s a great idea to sit quietly and look within.  Slow the outside noises, set them aside.  Here is where we find our

Clarity

             As I’ve said before, three minutes behind a closed door if that’s all we can manage.  Better even than that?  A nice lie-down with some relaxing music or guided meditation.  But truthfully, for us to take just a mini Self-Care pause, is better than not doing it at all.

             And in that brief opportunity, that still-mind moment, we really are able to see our answers and regain our center.  It works, I promise.  Clearing our brains will bring on solutions, serenity.

             Our job here is to seek out what rings true, what gives us hope and joy, then ….. we share it.  The more we can focus intention in our spare seconds, the better our souls can connect with our hearts.  And the better we can connect with our loved ones.

             Small, simple steps lead to enormous benefits, advancements on all levels.  We are worth it, take the time.  Our clarity is there, in the quiet.

Yours and Mine and Ours

             The most compelling argument I have, for when folks question spirituality because our physical existence seems so fucked up, is to agree.  Partially.  Yes, our planet is a huge stinkin’ mess.  Which is why we can be sure that this is not true reality, that there is something else/better/more.

             This shit-show we wake up to every day?  Yeah, that’s not the work of our higher consciousness nor something greater than humanity.  Our current state of being is most definitely the chaos of too many clashing egos, too much physicality.

             The more I focus on a sense of eternal and ephemeral peace, with the knowledge of Home, the calmer I feel, the more complete I know that I am.  The more I see, honor, and then release, the more empowered I feel to move through my days.

             Right now the Universe would like us to bring our attention inwards, acknowledge our own spark of the Divine, and then, with a deep steady breath, open to our connectedness of

The Whole

             Since our task here is to learn, to help, to grow, the more we start small and expand out, the easier it is for us to understand that we’re all part of this global family.  We are one portion of the entirety.  We are what makes up the All.

             While I am not evolved enough (yet) to accept the crimes of those in power, I know without question that I don’t need to.  It’s not up to me, so I can simply let their garbage go.  They will pay.  I am certain of it.

             There is so much more, more than pain and more than suffering, more than selfishness and more than greed.  There is beauty.  There is lovingkindness.  There is the strength we gain when we draw close, appreciating those we care for.

             We are more.  We are so, SO much more.

My last calendar view of 2019.

 

 

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Attitudinal Accordance

             While it is true that for quite some time now I’ve preached the gospel of Self-Care, it is equally true that from time to time I’ve continued to lapse into a state of judgey-ness.  (I’m not happy about this, so it needs to be addressed.)

             We all know of its importance, of the value in caring for ourselves.  But are we all doing what we can?  And are we all noticing, in ourselves, when the need is most crucial?

             Because, in the past month, if these events haven’t called for us to take care of ourselves and those closest to us, I don’t know what the fuck will.  We are all feeling at our very worst.  My hope is that we are also all being our kindest.

             Here is what the Universe would like us to focus on, it’s what I’ve been hearing for days, what needs to be shared:

true appreciation.

             Are we expressing gratitude for breathing deeply of clean fresh air?  Are we saying thank you to our bodies for carrying us through this shit-storm?  Are we showing appreciation, true and authentic appreciation to our loved ones who help bolster us up when we hit our lowest?

              The way of peace is through our own attitude.  Yes, as we discussed last week, we must be aware and informed.  Yes, we must make a difference and change what is (so tragically) not working.

             What is also a fact is that we must heal from within, we must honour our spirit and be good to ourselves.

             When I went back to work full-time, and there were stretches of 11 or 13 days when I had to show up and just punch in, I became aware of how phenomenally important days off were to me.  I needed them in a new and profound way.

             With the schedule I have now (four full days of work and two baby days), my one Me Time Tuesday has become even more valuable.  So, when I’m sick, and all I do is sleep through it . . . . .  well, it can seem like I’ve wasted the entire 24 hour period.

             Not true, says my adjusted attitude, says my Choose Joy perception adjustment.  What I did with that day was take care of myself.  My physical body (apparently) required an enormous amount of bed rest.

             I refuse to feel guilty, bad, or negative.  It is toxic.  And I no longer want to be poisoned.  No card has called out to me, no deck has directed me to draw.  What I have been lead to is this.  An image which is soul-soothing.  An image of serenity, even as we know it has taken enormous strength.

power

             I hope you are able to weather this time and place.  I hope most of all, that you are well.  And if you need help, you are able to find it.

 

 

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Drawing on Serenity

             Our focus has most certainly been on messages of Acceptance lately.  Which moves smoothly in to Release and Letting Go.

             (And by “smoothly” I obviously mean: dragged kicking and screaming.)

             Here’s the thing about Life Lessons, they are so rarely clear, so rarely apparent to see or understand.   It’s our job to filter out the background garbage and unearth the learning opportunity.

             This can be so challenging.  And yet, once we do find it, once we do catch it in our sights….. it’s FABULOUS!  We simply need to use our tools, and make the discovery.  It’s not complicated, but it’s also not always easy.

             Here’s what I’m hearing,

Amongst the Chaos, there is Tranquility.

             We have the power to find it.  We have the strength to locate it, and hold it close.  It is our healing, our respite.  It is the balm our frazzled soul requires.

             The Universe is telling us to utilize our Quiet Moments, to MAKE the time to replenish our emptiness.  (Remember, if you can’t get out of town or even be alone, step away for just a few deep breaths.  We can all do at least that much.)

             What I noticed when we took off for the falls last week was that the recharge I received kept me going.  I could truly draw on that time, that energy, when I was feeling run-down or worn-out.  (And we were really only gone for the afternoon!)

             As I sat down to make notes on this post, I was drawn to a different set of cards (even though I had thought we’d continue with more of The Divine Feminine Oracle).  Here is our validation, here is where we can gather what we need for finding our peace.

“Chrysoprase  ~

compassion, love, fertility, truth uplifting

Chrysoprase helps open the heart centre and allows you to feel the presence of divine unconditional love.

You are entering into a fertile period which will enable you to creatively express your true nature in a loving and compassionate way.  Through this you will give birth to new ideas which reflect and align with your true essence.

All you would love to create, manifest, and achieve is now possible, provided you remain true to yourself.  Listen to what your heart is saying; be guided by your intuition and you will create the success and fulfillment you so rightly deserve.

Many wondrous experiences are in store for you.” 

Today’s Deck:

Crystal Oracle by Toni Carmine Salerno

Today’s Sharing:

is this picture I took with my phone.

Florence, Oregon. Where I spent the afternoon, becoming 57.

 

 

 

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